When you justify

When you justify

Progress and practice.

Everyday I practice.

I practice showing up here at this keyboard.

My alarm goes off at 5am.

I get up.

I meditate.

I pray.

I visualize.

I write.

I teach teenagers each morning at 7am.

I work out at 8:30am.

I do the big projects before I login to anything.

I show up.

Everyday.

Some days, I don’t want to.

Some days, I want to stay in bed.

I went to bed late, I want to justify.

Some days, I don’t want to write.

Trying to tell myself I have nothing to say.

My fingers start typing anyway.

Some days, I don’t want to teach teenagers at 7am..

I get in my car and go anyway.

Some days, I don’t want to work out.

I try to tell myself skipping one day won’t matter.

Except everyday matters.

I lace up my tennis shoes, turn on the exercise video, and start running in place.

Practicing matters.

Showing up matters.

Practicing the power of showing up is what I used to not do so well.

When things would get hard or not work out in my favor I would see it as a sign.

A sign that I wasn’t supposed to do that thing.

A sign that I needed to try something else.

What it was it really? Normal.

It wasn’t a sign.

It was normal.

Normal for things to get hard.

Normal to not want to show up.

Normal to justify and then give up.

If you are tired of starting over, you have to stop giving up in the little ways.

You have to stop justifying.

You have to ignore the voice in your head that tells you today isn’t the day, tomorrow is.

You have to type when you think you have nothing to say.

You have to get up when your body begs to stay in bed.

You have to workout when your mind says you’re too busy.

You have to do the big work when voices say: check social media.

You have to tell distractions you’re the boss; you decide what happens right now.

You have to act instead of react.

You have to create instead of consume.

When I started making these decisions everyday my life got simpler.

Yours will, too.

To the practice of small things,

Davina

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