Never Enough

Never Enough

For so many years, I’ve measured my success by amount of clients and if I hit six figures or not this year.
It seemed worthy…goals like these.
The truth is, it always left me feeling like a failure.
Never enough.
Literally, that song from The Greatest Showman.
It felt like my anthem.
Not in a good way.
Never enough…
Clients
Money
Friends
Approval
Me
I fell short more often than I wanted anyone to know about.
It’s taken a long time…
And I won’t say my brain doesn’t take me back to those comfortable and familiar measures of success.
Today, Seeing myself
Watching the me who is changing
Witnessing myself have compassion for me when I experience comparison
Or when I yearn for the approval of others
When I think I should have more clients
When I believe I should have made more money
This willingness to love the me who feels a mess
And understand her without needing to change her
My desire to put my arm around her
Has changed me forever
It’s made me love myself in ways I never have before
Which has allowed me to love other people in a deeper way than I ever have before.
Remember how I told I couldn’t bring myself to do self portraits?
This image is my first self portrait, in years, that isn’t a selfie.
More are coming.
This self portrait project has been powerful and awesome and healing.
I’m seeing myself.
And liking what I see.
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