I made a decision

I made a decision

More than 365 days ago I made a decision.

I decided to be more disciplined in every aspect of my life.

I saw who I could be. I saw who I was.

There was a huge gap between the two of us.

I wanted to bridge that gap.

For me, I knew the only way from here to there was more discipline.

In every way.

Once I made the decision I knew it mattered to the way I ate, took care of my body and spirit, my money, my relationships…

Everything.

I didn’t wait til the next day.

I didn’t tell myself I was going to have one more piece of chocolate cake and enjoy my last day of freedom from myself.

I decided right then and there.

No ifs, ands, or buts.

It was now or never.

In that moment, I started thinking differently.

What would someone who is disciplined do about eating a second helping of food.

They wouldn’t.

And they wouldn’t eat too much of their first helping of food.

They would eat on a smaller plate.

They would leave food on their plate just to prove they could.

They would exercise.

They would never miss a day.

No excuses.

No justifications.

No amount of bad weather, hot or cold, would stop them from getting out there and pounding the pavement.

They would pay attention to their money.

Whatever they were over spending on, they would stop doing it.

They wouldn’t go out to eat all the time.

They would check their account everyday.

They would be grateful for the money they do have each time they looked at their account or thought about money.

They wouldn’t allow themselves to get stressed about money.

They would be patient with people.

When they wanted to get mad, they would pause.

They would think: does this really matter?

Or does my relationship with this person matter more?

They would listen before speaking.

They would be helpful even when they wanted to sit on the couch.

They would look for ways to be kind when they wanted to not care.

This is the way my thinking would go…

To every part of my life, I would think about what a disciplined person would do.

I would DO what the disciplined person would do.

I’m not perfect at this process.

There are moments when I tell myself I don’t want to do something…most of the time, I do it anyway.

There are days when I want to throw in the towel…most of the time, I don’t.

I haven’t missed a day of working out in over 365 days.

I’ve done something every single to to move my body and soul.

All of these things are still a work in progress.

They started with one decision.

What decision will you make today?

What will you stop putting off until tomorrow?

Decide. Don’t look back.

To not waiting to live the life we are meant to live,

Davina

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